Geek Anxiety: When You Just Don’t Have Time to Love ALL THE THINGS

Photo courtesy of Sara V.
Photo courtesy of Sara V.

One of the best things about being a geek who’s active in a variety of online geeky communities is how much enthusiasm you encounter. John Green truly said it best when he said “Nerds are allowed to love stuff, like jump-up-and-down-in-the-chair-can’t-control-yourself love it.”

This excitement and enthusiasm, coupled with a societal culture that has recently made traditionally obscure geek interests– like comic book heroes and video gaming–mainstream means that there is a never-ending supply of geeky television shows, movies, books, podcasts, toys, and games being introduced–and an equally countless number of nerds expressing their delight with said items.

While new things and diversity in all geek spheres is always a cause for celebration, I find that it can also elicit anxiety (at least for me). As someone with limited time and discretionary income, how do I find hours in the day and pennies in an already-stretched budget to watch, listen, buy, and love ALL OF THE THINGS?

I think part of the driving force behind this feeling is the nagging, ever-constant need to prove myself worthy of being called a “True Geek”. How can I truly call myself a fan of the Walking Dead if I’m 10 episodes behind on the current season? Can I really consider myself a “gamer” if the only systems I own are Gameboy Color, N64, and SNES?

(Spoiler alert: Yes. Yes, I can. But “Fake Geek Girl Shaming” is a topic I’ll tackle another day.)

It’s a shame, too, because I want to be right there with everyone, keeping up with everything. I’m dying to watch Agent Carter and start following Gotham, but I’m several episodes behind in Flash, Arrow, and Walking Dead. (Most of this is because I don’t have cable.)

I love Doctor Who, but I haven’t watched any of the Capaldi episodes, and I’m so far out of touch with the Game of Thrones TV show that I don’t even tell people I follow it anymore, even though I’ve read the books.

I just recently bought a ticket to go see Welcome to Nightvale live when they come to Chicago, and then realized I have several weeks’ worth of podcasts to listen to. And don’t even get me started on all the merch that’s out there…. Dolls, toys, posters, clothes, games, books, comics. And all of it is so cute and so expensive.

And while I would love to blow my hard-earned cash on adorable figurines and comics and DVDs, I’m trying really hard to edit down my possessions and be happier with less. Also, my apartment is tiny and I just don’t have the space.

Not to mention all of the shows that people keep telling me I HAVE to watch: Battlestar Galactica, Supernatural, Stargate, Clone Wars, and the list goes on ad nauseum.

Does anyone have time for it all? How could they? Is anyone else overwhelmed by all of these things?

Or is it just me?

Ultimately, I try to spend my limited time on the fandoms that mean the most to me. And I’ve resigned myself to being a bit behind on what’s hot in the geek-o-sphere.

Do you guys ever feel overwhelmed by ALL the things? How do you delegate your time, money, and energy?

Let me know in the comments.

2 thoughts on “Geek Anxiety: When You Just Don’t Have Time to Love ALL THE THINGS

  1. I totally feel this way all the time! I so badly want to watch, play and do all of the things, but there just isn’t enough time in the day. I don’t have an answer for you unfortunately :(

  2. Yes. Yes I do. You are so right! I get geek-shamed for being a season behind on Walking Dead, and even tho I adore anything zombie, I am totally and completely emotionally wrapped up in Season 7 of Doctor Who right now. And when my nerves need a break from that I watch Firefly to calm down. I get wrapped up in trying to by all the tshirts and this and that, but dang that stuff costs a lot of money. So yeah. I get the shakes thinking of everything I need to catch up on and collect and find out about. Glad I’m not alone!

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